i lose weight then i dont. It makes me want to scream.
I hate making myself throw-up and when i think about stuff i feel insane...for example this whole week my friend was ill from catching the stomach bug. She has been throwing up constantly and she lost over 8 lbs
and all i could think was not "I hope she gets better soon and i hope i don't catch it..." No instead i TRIED catching it. (fail ): )
I rather throw up a lot from being sick than making myself throw up.
It's hard....but i must say i do love the feeling of being light headed afterwards..its the only way i know i did it right....weird huh...
Other than that it has been 98 days since i have last cut (: